scary...changes?

HA.... the only illustrations I made so far were sketching out diagrams of a neuron and brainy goods from my PSYCH101 class. Believe it or not, I sketched it out quite quickly before my professor moved on to its functions in the presentation slide. In some ways, I guess I still got some artsy tendencies~ Otherwise, these will help me in my exam next week. I will not be traveling much this summer, I guess :/

Like Obama said, I say: there will be changes. Or something like that. I have been changing my looks in my own fashion and my own artwork. The direction that I am seeking is slowly showing through. I am kind of disturbed at how much changes happened within me. I suppose that I have been quite uninspired and bored enough to do so. Not that this is important lol...but to bring up my point:

I am feeling this way with my illustrations as well. Sure, I use the arts on my nails (egahds! Jackson Pollock/ 80s inspired nail polish designs!) and for my class time use. But I just could not do anything on my sketchbook..not one sketch on a final paper too :/




One of my illustration mentors talked about this with me, and it was apparent that I was still stuck in my art school phase. By this, I meant being worried about the criticism, the time, and how the illustrations should be obsessively. He told me that there were no limits to any type of illustration I do, and that I need to stop categorizing MassArt's majors as if they were blocks that I could not get into. But other than that, it was agreed that I need a break from all of this.

But nothing is really helping me with trying to start on my pin up project~ For now, here is a rough sketched thumbnail of one of the ideas (sketched months ago).

So what am I going to do with this one? My only feedback from everyone about this image is that this interpretation does not really make any sense. I never really got a clear one on how exactly... To simple put, I was inspired by my love for heart-shaped locks (you know, the kind you see on diaries as a kid), French-style keys, and the keyhole shape. I placed the shapes on the female's body in certain areas. This could be about her sexuality. This could be about interpreting the idea of unlocking the door to her true self. Perhaps it was about hiding secrets behind these door-like parts..and peeking into them. Cheesy as some of them may sound, I am simply trying to interpret her femininity.. (no, this is not "feminist")

I plan to create this in a Art-Nouveau inspired style, and this will be part of my pin up series. Color sketches and final sketch: coming soon. Medium: not sure...